Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Pain

I've been out of contact for a while now.
Out of my mind for a while.
Pain is a constant companion now, and discomfort.
Wrenching gut pain, pounding throbbing head pain. Fuzzy head, hard to think. So very tired most every moment. Emotionally distressed, spiritually distressed.

But this is actually better than before. Pretty sh%$$y, right? I'm "in process" of being treated. It could be far, far worse. And supposedly by this fall, I'll be feeling pretty normal again.

What the hell is normal? I have no f*^@ing clue anymore. Hard to hold on to the hope, the promise of better, of this thing called normal.

I realized the other day that this particular health drama has been going on now for just over a year now. I've been a near invalid off and on, and the sickest I've ever been for a YEAR now. I keep reminding myself that there are many who live with chronic pain, chronic conditions, and that I am so very fortunate that I can still work to a certain extent, still function pretty well. I can walk, talk, sing, dance,bake brownies, lead worship, and read books to my girls. And kiss my husband.

So, keep the gratitude levels up as much as I can, focus on the promise of the future, kiss and hug my family a lot, and stop focusing so much of my emotional and spiritual energy on things I cannot change.

And keep praying for my mother, my awesome, loving, kick-butt mom who is going to come through her cancer surgery just fine, thank you very much.

8 comments:

anilkumart said...

Thanks for a nice post you have given to us with such an large collection of information. Great work you have done by sharing them to all.
Study MBBS in China

pg dental in china

Reddo Mac said...

Free Download Newly Released Movie
Just Click This Link.....

http://imdb2013.blogspot.com/

Вита Вита said...

Для всех, кого интересует раскрутка своего сайта или блога :)
http://livesurf.ru/promo/49864 бесплатные программы для раскрутки сайта

jessy said...

I really like your blog it's really nice.

Search Engine Marketing Company in india
Search Engine Optimization Company in india
Digital Marketing Company in india
Social Media Optimization Company in india
top web design companies
website design company
best website design companies
Website Design Companies
web development company india
web design company india

jessy said...






I really like your blog it's really nice.

Deals
best deals
travel deals
Cheap Deals
laptop deals
tv deals
online deals
best buy deals
great deals
camera deals

Warning Seo said...

Дошка Оголошень Дрогобич Стрий Самбір Трускавець Моршин Мостиська Миколаїв Стебник Борислав

Дошка Дрогобич Стрий Самбір Трускавець Стебник Борислав


Купити пластикові вікна Дрогобич Стрий Самбір Трускавець Моршин Мостиська Миколаїв Стебник Борислав

вікна двері балкони жалюзі ролети ролокасети ворота та автоматика

usha sharma said...
This comment has been removed by the author.
Shilpiimpex (sanjeev gupta) said...

Your blog is very nice, blog is one of nice way to express  our view for some one,  have a look also below this words, it belong to jewelry sector.  Shilpi impex  is  manufacturer , wholesaler and  supplier  of  silver gemstone  and  silver jewelry.

silver jewellery

Indian silver jewelry

silver jewelry jaipur
jaipur silver jewellery

silver jewelry

indian silver jewelry

rajasthani silver jewelry

wholeseller and supplier of  indian silver jewelry

handcrafted silver jewelry

handmade silver jewelry

famous silver jewelry

bezel silver jewelry

buy online silver jewelry

Silver jewelry jaipur

Leading  online silver jewelry firm

indian semi precious stones

silver bridal jewelry

silver wedding ring

silver jewelry jaipur

precious and semi precious stones

semi precious gemstone

Wholesale Silver Necklaces & Pendants